Have Faith. People say these two little words to appease the inevitable anxiety experienced due to lack of knowledge of the future. I'm in a position where all of the chips are up in the air. Love, career, and social matters all have a beginning, yet none of them have a clear path ahead of me. I suppose this is, by definition, the meaning of Life. Embarking on a journey. And the very nature of a journey is to experience the unknown.
But sometimes you just need a hint. A hunch. A bone. A something that let's you know you are on the right track. Or at least on a track that is headed forward, and not into a dead-end.
Have Faith. How does one get faith to begin with? And once it's been had, how does one hold on to it? It can, in fact, be quite elusive when the signs aren't pointing to the final destination.
Take Love for example. Love has a way of cleverly playing hide and seek when you wish it would just give up and show itself. Then, just when you think you've sniffed out its hiding spot, you find yourself lost in a forest, with no track marks to find your way back to civilization. Having faith in this situation is easy in terms of accepting that you will eventually make your way back to camp (as in, return to your "normal" self). But the need to find love never escapes you. It's like the first high a crack addict experiences and seeks for years to experience again. Having faith that you will eventually grab a hold of love's hand before it escapes you again is quite difficult to get a good grasp on.
I'm still trying to find the faith that I will find love and it will not run away. In the meantime, I'm going to enjoy watching the $1000 career and social chips fall on lucky number 27. When I figure this faith thing out, I'll let you know. And if you have any suggestions, I'm all ears.
Until we chat again....
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Hide-and-Seek: a game in which a number of "players" conceal themselves in the environment, to be found by one or more "seekers".
Does love really play such games??
In some variations of the game Hide-and-Seek players may move to other hiding spots while "it" isn't looking, and those who can remain hidden the longest are considered to be the "best player"
You cannot be fully present in your loving if you are happy sometimes and sad most of the time, if you are afraid to leave while you are wondering if you are going to get left. You cannot be fully present in your loving if you are wondering why you should stay or how you can go without hurting and being hurt. You are not present in love if you are afraid to tell the absolute truth about who you are, what you need and what you want. Under these circumstances, you are not present in love. "YOU" are in hiding!
Love does not hide anyone! Love stands tall in the truth of what it is for everyone to see and receive it. Love does not tell half the story, some of the time. Nor does love avoid telling its story just to save time and feelings. Love is respectful, honorable, noble and honest. Love is gentle, compassionate, willing to share and able to comfort. Love speaks boldly yet softly. It reaches far without losing ground. You know that love is present when in the midst of the storm you can find something, some one thing, to laugh about, smile about and hold on to.
You are not fully present in your loving if you are blaming and not accepting your share of responsibility, if you are not acknowledging your part in whatever is going on or your pain about it. You are not and cannot be fully present in your loving if you are not expressing gratitude for all you have received if you are not supporting or sharing your vision for yourself. You cannot be fully present in your loving of another if you are still making excuses for not being present because you are probably in a great deal of pain!
Until today, you may have made excuses for not being fully present in your loving relationships. Just for today, be devoted to being fully present in all of your relationships. Share the truth of your thoughts and feelings. Share the truth about yourself.
I will know love when I realize
I cannot hide what I think, what I feel or who I am!
@ Anonymous...Thank you for your comment....however, I'm having a hard time seeing the connection between hiding/seeking and having faith...Yes I used hide/seek as a metaphorical representation to explain having desire, not so much to display a "game" as referring to be a player or being emotionally unavailable. Thanks in advance for the clarification.
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